I dont mean it

Waaaa it seems like want to scream out loud dirty words.
This is my first love i know that, want to be perfect in every condition that's what i want to. But it's such a too dificult for me.
Why? Cause i'm the man who full of JEALOUS things, i cant change that behavior.
I really really love her, but until now i cant make her happy all the time, there's always problem between me and her.
My big problem is, how to control my heart to be easy face the fact that she always has somebody who want make her to be his girlfriend. I really cant accept that at all, this hate is like the earth quake ready to shake whole world.
Like tonight when she wrote status on her FB and there comment from (boy's name), he said that almost every night he always see her. Ok thats fine, but what's his goal about he doing that, very suspicious and i hate people like him.
Aaaaaaaarrrrggggghhh
Is that fine when boy feel want to cry or until weeping like child who lost his toys?, i have no idea bout that.
Gomenasai sorry pardon forgive me maaf ngapuro memang ga cukup, but i cant say anything else, hope u understand me. Please and please stay with me although be with me not always make u happy
:-( :'(

And now everything has change with any problem for us. I can handle this as long as i can, cause you know what honey, see you upset like this is make my mind unstable.